why do I do this to myself?

should I be able to pick up where I left off?

just because I used to be good at something doesn’t mean I will still be good at it months later.

I set unrealistic expectations, then get disappointed when I don’t meet them

case in point: I went for my first run of the season this past Sunday. My goal was to run for 20 minutes. 5 minutes in I felt good so I raised the bar to 30. After 15 minutes I had to start walking because I ran out of juice.

I do this with many things. I set the bar too high, then when I fail to reach it, get disappointed. I do tend to try and learn from mistakes, but until recently I never realized this one.

baby steps. start slow, build up, realize a realistic goal, then raise the bar and repeat. sometimes the first step is the hardest.

don’t get me wrong though, I am not down on myself, I am just expressing one of my shortcomings. this is a realization of self improvement to come